a moment of *sigh*

10.45pm...

Heroes on starworld, CSI miami on AXN, and a couple of interesting shows on other channels...

Somehow...

I'm NUMB!

yeah...been having this NUMBness for the past week, trying to get pass it,and obviously what ever effort that did, couldnt see the result anywhere in sight.


A friend of mine (who happens to be a clairvoyant btw...remain nameless of course, but u know who u are hehehehe) told me that i need to focus on other aspect in my life (professionally and educationally...) where as the OTHER aspect (hence the romance department...yeah...still trying to figure out why that part always sucks the most!) remains "DARK and GLOOMY".

Ha ha HA hA...(a very sceptical tone of laugh)

**what else is new?**

and i asked him...

"Nothing at all? what about Froggy?"

Froggy...another word for a certain FRENCH persona that i've been tango-ing...in a more SIBBLING with Something in between, and yet enticing kinda relationship...

"NOPE!" he answered...FuBu maybe...but definately not there...

OK then! Not that i expect something more from this Frog, I know where we stand...so that answer didnt surprise me a bit...

and so what happen to the rest of my TANGOs? Still nothing?

WED? We talk everyday, we email everyday...well...not lately though...call once a week...not an easy thing for people who live quite on the opposite of the world.

JFC? Great conversation...great friend? and? NOTHING either?

Talked to Larry about the whole thing...and yes...he said things that pretty much cover the whole thing...the whole cliche...which were true...of course...
But knowing me...im not really good at handling cliches...I tend to avoid cliches...although sometimes CLICHEs are pretty much the answers to everything...

So right now...

I will enjoy my life...vicariously...through my own...

I will make better of myself...

I will think of nothing else than what Mr.Clairvoyant told me to do...


and knowing me...sometimes easier to talk than to actually do...

LOL!